Detox mode... Resolution 2.

Eating habits have always been an issue for me.  I think I eat right but really, I don't.  I try, I really do, but I'm not consistent enough.  I do exercise, so at least that part is covered.  I've been running often enough to be able to run five miles straight, and that's my best record so far.  I also do yoga and swim every now and then.  Again, my problem is consistency so I think there's some space for improvement in this department.

My resolution number 2 is not so much about losing weight but more about quality.  Quality control regarding what kind of food I input into my body.  I want to establish a healthy pattern of eating more veggies and fruits and to follow an exercise routine.  So less sweets, less bread, and more high fiber and greens.

For the time being I started a detox of flour.  No bread, no pasta, no crackers.  At least for a month.  I had a baking spree the last couple of weeks that fed my most hated love handles.  So this detox will help me achieve a fresh start on my own personal quest for total well being.  

Resolutions:Countdown to 2009... Number 1.

Ok... here I go. This year I want to include behavioral adjustment resolutions. I want to improve my well beign by taking care of the things I neglect or take for granted the most.

So, my first goal this years is... to have more intimacy in my relationship.

For a long time now I've thought that our sexual pace was good.  You know what they say, at least three times a week right? Well, not really.  Nobody's keeping score.  I mean, we're not in a competition to win the "Most sexually active couple" award, I know that.  But I also know that couples really need this time for themselves.  The exploration of the bodies is a very basic necessity that synchs the minds of two different worlds.  The act itself is the essence, the basic instinct the drew us together in the first place and it is our responsibility to keep up with it.  Besides, sex is good, really good, so this resolution is not that bad after all ;-) 

This year will be our ten year anniversary.  We've done pretty well so far and it takes a lot of tweaking here and there from both of us to keep up with each other.  So this is my contribution to the relationship:  I choose to seduce my husband more often.  I want more sex and orgasms, and I want to have them with the man I love.

Christmas Day

This morning we woke up to find a Christmas tree full of goodies.  My brother got the chicken pox and he's looking rather disgusting, but that didn't got in the way of us having a beautiful Christmas morning.  My sister in law has been cooking all morning long and I have been sitting in the kitchen playing with my computer, talking with her while her impetuous toddler daughter plays and screams with every toy she discovers along the way.  We will be baking cookies later on.  Mmmmmm the smell of homemade cookies is just what we need to finish up this perfect day.

I have started my list of resolutions for the next year that is coming.  I am pretty proud of myself since I did quite well keeping up with my previous list.  I guess I just finally understood that not following up with my own needs just proves how unfaithful I am to myself.  I am responsible for me, and I am the one that needs to take action whenever needed.

For the rest of the day I will remain like this, calmed, thoughtful, enjoying the family, and eating all the yummy things we have prepared.  

Merry Christmas to whomever crosses this path.....

Sexy, sexy.

I had sex with my husband last night.  The kind that leaves you soar and wonderfully tired afterwards. It was unpredictable, sexy, sweaty and oh so good.  The orgasm was long, powerful and explosive. I can still smell the sex emanating from within.  Is a musky and humid smell that lingers and only I can perceive.  I just love it.

I thought about our sexual encounter during the day.  Nobody at work knew the things I did the night before, and I bet none of them could even imagine how good I was at it.  I'm an average kind of girl, unpretentious, who minds her own business.  But I like sex.... and I don't apologize about that. 

I only wish we had more of it.  The daily routines of marriage life are often tedious and tiresome.  We don't have kids, but still we have long hours of work and chores to take care of.  And now with my brother (and his wife and kids) staying at our house, well, adds to it.

But I am already setting my priorities for next year and I on top of the list stands that I want lots of more sex in 2009.

Monday Recap

Yesterday I saw the movie La Vie En Rose.  It was long, intense and sad, but a good movie nonetheless.  I am kind of a biography junky.  Whenever I have the chance to peek into somebody else's life, I'm on it.  Let them be killers, artists, or historical figures, if their lives were passionate, pointless, predictable, boring, I really don't care.  I just like discovering their characters, whatever made them be what they were (or are).

I had lots of plans for the weekend.  I was supposed to go on a shooting session with a friend of mine.  She wants to make Christmas cards with her son's pictures and she asked me if I could do it for her.  Of course I'm always up for the opportunity to practice with my camera.  I'm always one picture away from achieving my best shot yet.  We had to cancel our plans due to bad weather.  Hopefully we'll pick it up the next weekend.  I have some plans with photography.  For the time being I'm concentrating on the craft and creativity of the process.  So I'll keep you posted on future developments.

I went to the gym early today.  I had a good running session that left me energized this Monday morning.  I should wrap up my post already... I have to run to work.

Talks around the office.

Rumors of layoffs have started to run around the office.  I've been working at the bank for two years now and the truth is that I've been wanting to get out ever since.  But the possibility of being unemployed scares, specially in these times where the job market is at its worst.

If you've been keeping up with the news lately, you know that it's been pretty tough for the financial industry to keep up with the economy as it is.  Many banks have collapsed and others have been forced to merge with bigger competitors.  The ones that are still standing must adjust to the current situation.  That's  when the layoffs become the norm instead of the exception.

I probably have one of the most tedious and predictable jobs there are: I'm an accountant. Yes, I'm a more specialized type of accountant since I primarily deal with investments and portfolio management, but the bottom line is that I'm crunching numbers like any other accountant out there.  So, given the fact that two of the three traders that the bank had when they first hired me are gone, is pretty obvious that the people that work behind them leave too.  It's a matter of time.

The only thing that worries me about all this would be loosing the income.  My husband has a good job and makes pretty good money, but for the first time in ten years we are really earning enough to pay our bills, have savings and enjoy a luxury every now and then.  We really are in our best financial shape ever.

But, to be completely honest, I'm kind of wishing for my name to be in the list.  "Be careful what you wish for" is what my mind keeps repeating.  I know I shouldn't be wanting this, but this could be a good moment for me to rethink Me.  I would hate to become one of those people who are constantly complaining about how unhappy they are at their day jobs and slowly, I fear, I am becoming one of them. 

Gnomes in my garden on Thanksgiving day.

I have a thing for photography.  My dad used to have a home made dark room when I was little, and I loved helping him out in the red colored lab.  It was pretty neat, watching him through the shadows, working his way around the chemicals and the papers.  I grew up finding stacks of pictures all around the house, my mom trying to keep up with him while putting the family albums together.  She would label the pictures and put funny notes in them, just a little reminder of the story behind the frozen image.

Now, with all the digital revolution, dark rooms have been replaced by computers and Photoshop. No more red lights in dark rooms.  I bought a digital SLR camera about a year ago and now I'm the one taking pictures all the time.  Just before sitting down to have our Thanksgiving dinner, I went to my garden and took this picture.  I bought several of these gnome figurines and placed them all around my front garden.  So here it is... I want to call this one Leo.  Don't ask me why.

Dinner was lovely and really good.  My sister left Tuesday to meet with her new boyfriend in NYC.  After six years of living with her girlfriend (yes, that's right), she now decided she fell in love with this guy and wants to be a mother.  This in itself is an entirely different post so I'm going to save it for later.  My mom and dad are still here through next Monday.  We watched Wall-E after everything was cleaned and put away.  I loved it!! The guys at Pixar have always been able to steal my heart... so thanks again for delivering :-)

Tomorrow I have work, can you believe that!? I'll be the only one having to wake up in the morning.  I guess I better start wrapping up my day.  At least I got to play with my gnomes today.  And hopefully tomorrow won't be such a lousy day at work.

So much to write... so little time.

I have been up since 4:30 am. Well, not literally, since I stayed in bed tossing and turning. Just couldn't fall asleep again. I have so much garbage revolving in my head right now. It needs to be taken care of or otherwise I will go nuts.

My family came to visit for Thanksgiving week. I've had a full house since last Friday and it has been kind of hectic and chaotic. My sister came from the north and my parents from the south. I'm in the middle so it's the most convenient place for everybody to meet. I had been looking forward to their visit, although I knew it was going to be an emotional challenge. Don't get me wrong: I love my family more than anything. It’s just that sometimes communicating with them can become a difficult engagement. Too big personalities, so much time apart from each other... people change in those lapses of time. If you didn’t keep up along the way, you better be ready for the surprises.

We were four kids growing up together. My sister is the oldest, I come in five years later as the second child, and then I have two smaller brothers, three years apart from each other. My sister was my hero while I was growing up. I thought she was the coolest person alive. Of course, if you ask her all she remembers is that I used to bite her when she wanted to play with me or wouldn’t stand still when she told me to. But that was when I was four or five years of age. By the time I was a teenager I was ready to make her my role model. I wanted to hang out with her friends and listen to their gossiping about boys. I wanted to do everything like her, look like her, listen to the same music she did. Then she graduated from High School and headed out to college. That was the beginning of a series of disenchantments on both sides of the story.

Talking to myself...

Yesterday I turned 32.  I'm a Sagittarius and this is how the latest Glamour magazine describes our kind:

Why You're Wonderful

Your positive, adventurous outlook is a breath of fresh air.  The superhero of the zodiac, you fight tirelessly for truth, justice and underdogs of every stripe.

Why You're Impossible

It's Sag's way or no way.  You've got zero patience for others limitations, and if someone lets you down, whoa, look out!

It's incredible, really.  How could the alignment of the stars determine the core of my soul? How does it work?  I don't have an answer for any of these questions, but I can assure you that I have never been so accurately described before.

I like to think of myself as a lovable and caring friend.  As a wonderful lover and true partner in life's way.  A daughter, a sister, a wife... a human being in search of greater things to achieve, to learn and to give.

But the Impossible part of the description is what really gets me the most. "You've got zero tolerance for others limitations..." Ufff... that's a tough one, isn't it.  The hard part for me is that it's true.  I have the tendency to be judgmental and bossy and I always have the need to speak my mind.  And not everybody is happy about this.  At least not the people that I love and that are closer to me.

So, in an effort to depurate my mind and make sense of all my reasoning on the things I cannot control, I have started this anonymous blog.  At least I'll have a place where I'll be able to say what I want, in whatever way I want to say it without the need to apologize for inconvenient words or phrases I may have spoken. And in the process, I will hopefully learn a thing or two about my limitations... and a little more about my virtues.